FAITH - my vision

"be thou my vision, O Lord of my heart...

"high king of heaven my victory won
may i reach heaven's joys o bright heaven's sun
heart of my own heart, whatever befall 
still be my vision, o Ruler of all

"heart of my own heart whatever befall
still be my vision, o Ruler of all
still be my vision, o Ruler of all"

-be thou my vision

heart of my own heart, whatever befall
still be my vision, o Ruler of all

gulp. whatever befall. yikes. 
this is a hard statement for me to think about, yet my heart of hearts - the heart that Jesus Christ has made new and is making new - longs for this satisfying focus. a focus on the Ruler of all. on the Lord of my heart.

"today is so important. what are you doing today, sam? what are you doing to make other people happier? what are you doing to get better grades? what are you doing to figure out the future? how are you preparing yourself to be a wife, a friend, and a mom? you better start working harder. you have a lot of work to get done. the faster you fix yourself, the faster you get things figured out, the better life will be. the more fulfilled you'll be. the more your heart will be satisfied."

"wait a minute, you. who says that i have tomorrow?" i reply. "who says that tomorrow will come? that a thousand tomorrows will come? since when is this world the 'end all'? what can i truly to do make my life so much better? do i really have control? better yet - if i do, do i really want it?"

"you can plan. you can try harder. you can work faster. you can be more successful. you can have control. it can be yours. you can determine how things work out. you can figure out the unknown days. it's your responsibility to make it work."

"no. i know it's not true. at least i think i know. wait... is it true? 
no. i know it is not. what is truth? this is truth: God is love (1 john 4:16). God is faithful (2 timothy 2:13). God is good (luke 18:19). so on these truths i will set my mind. only he is eternal. only he reigns forever. when i am with him only he will be my focus. john 17:3 tells me that eternal life is to know God. i want that eternal life now. i can have that eternal life now. why then, am i so concerned with knowing the world? why am i so concerned with controlling my own destiny?"

may the words of this song be the cry of my heart, day after day, moment after moment.

heart of my own heart, whatever befall
still be my vision, o Ruler of all.